hello world.
today i turn 19.

i'll let you in on a secret:
im always scared of birthdays.
i wish they never come.
because im afraid to know if i'll be appreciated or not.

i love appreciating others,
and i dont mind if people dont appreciate me.

But i just dont want to know whether they do or not.

as this day closed in on me,
i told myself to hold my breath, close my eyes, dont think about it.

God Loves Me

today i woke up at 9am.
beautiful weather,
classes cancelled (omg really surprisingly. thank you nafa for celebrating my bday hahahah)
38 texts
over 180 fb messages
9 missed calls
and a huge birthday surprise from irwin <3
and its only 11.42 am now!

im excited :)

everyone loves to be appreciated and remembered.
so dont think twice when you want to compliment someone.
who knows, you might be the best thing that happened to them in that day/week ;)

Happy birthday, Rachel.
learn to love
love to live
live and laugh

Your mercies are new every morning,
today is beautiful, Daddy

xx, Rachel