starting to wonder why i ever renamed this blog :rachgivesback.
when ive nothing to Give Back
oh how sad.

what a selfish person ive become indeed.
i used to care so much,
but now i cant care less.

they say its cause of what im going through, and that sometimes we need to focus on ourselves.

but i know thats an excuse to make me feel better.

whether or not its hard,
Caring is an attitude and character that you either have, or dont.
it doesnt come and go, yknow.

sometimes i tell myself this is the week im gonna stop mopping around,
whining at my situation and pitying myself.
but i never do get around doing it, eh?

but oh how my soul yearns to be on fire and start running again.

oh how much ive changed in the past 3 years.

no, really.

none the less, i think i look better,
must be my improving make up skills and knowledge of camera angles.
so i'll leave you with the following:

sigh like how some people say no brains just use your looks. Okay Lor.

/edit: double sigh i look at the pictures and realise, Looks also not very good.
killmethanks.









xoxo Rachel